Counter-Points

One of the major problems I think with-in the African American community is how does it define itself. Being part of culture with such a rich and full heritage, gives self pride. But we do suffer from mis-definition and a label of how to define itself. Many years back I wrote on my own search of black self idenity. A feeling at cross between worlds at the time it's funny now a little seems to have changed with some regards. In our culture it's the gangster/thug counter culture and the afro-centric positive influences. In my early 20's I was more effected by the more negative counter culture than  the more positive one. I later had my own personal rebirth of sorts and began to lean towards more positive self awareness/ also addressing harsher truths with in our communities and became more grounded in my own values. With the ganster/gang culture was initially established with in the African American community for blacks to  help self-govern our communities. Because of exploitation the corruption of outside influences like the police within certain communities. They much later became like influences like they were placed to protect the community from. The gangster culture today is a part of popular culture, music, fashion, visual media. That part of urban culture effects and influences culture on a global level, much because of the music it spawned, the gangsta rap. As a people I do think hate seeing our youth gravitating toward the more negative part of what we today identify with. I think as African Americans we have a harder time relating with wider culture our selves. Judged by preconceived notions of who we are, our places and roles with in society that we allow wider society to set upon ourselves we feed into and box those stereotypes. By acting how others would expect to behave and especially with our youth using the more negative to define itself. It continues to erect the very barriers that we've work hard to try and demolish creating a self defeating cycle.

In The Water ( King on Calhoun)

   Recently while relaxing at Marion Square after drinking a glass of water from Starbucks.  I usually go there and watch life pass by ( no pun intended ).  Im an avid observer the natural rhythms and some unnatural also. I have great time there watching the Charleston beautiful women going tither and fro.  But this time while drinking my water something happened different or an old story replaying itself.  

   Heres the backstory Starbucks in the  past they’ve tried  against my will to do some hybriding. First initially the process it was pairing with a barrista that worked there. No hybriding there just me and a girl which whom I was extremely attracted toward she looked like a ex of mine. Next  what followed wasn’t pleasing at all I guess since they successful paired with girl they thought I would allow them to do that with a guy, I guess in process to make me bi-sexual HELL NO Im not! So I went through about a month they craziest experience of my life. I fought it pushed for my true attractions (women) and won, but after that needless to say I backed away from Starbucks. And after that experience I personally looked at homosexuality differently I realised it wasn’t a natural process at all. Its not in nature and all genetically induced. I begin to look at that group that took up for in the past, differently.

  Here a group so called friends are trying to do the same thing. and also a couple institution and again Starbucks ( certain branches ) I’m willing to give anything an second chance and like dummy the same thing happened. They gave me some homosexual or gene/bug like the African American woman did in the past , were I would be in physical pain if I looked at any girl outside my race. Which I fought that and won also. Are they the only groups that seem to have the “right” to break the rules. Which I’m not interested in neither. Maybe a specific type of African American woman, but that window is narrow. My thing is I fight towards my true attractions toward caucassin  and other exotic women. And with caucasion women at one point I felt ashamed that’s all I was attracted toward and thought I should be with a black women. But when I  came to grips with whom and what I truly wanted I didn’t  care what others thought.  Fuck what looks better on paper a guy or black woman and what could propel my art career and make me sell more paintings, its what my hearts sings and not what someone or institution tries to program.  And no amount of sedatives can change that, period!

   I’m really not with this gay and bi agenda! The world needs, fuck that women deserve real men! That are intelligent ,strong and also can be nurturing and again that are men. I guy can be happy and not gay and enjoy life and not want to fuck another guy in the ass!  I’m just saying gay or bi sexuality isn't anything to strive towards period. What should be a goal is being better people.

Bi-agenda

The bi agenda , the hidden conspiracy. Does not being bi-sexual make you less intelligent or less nurturing person. Am I less creative because of my sexual preferences only toward women. Is being straight a crime in today's society. When corporations or “schools” have too much say so in “one’s” (he or she ) sexual preferences.  Also having communities vote on what or whom the individual “make”.  To me I think if you let  an outside force dictate what or whom you can be or your personal taste or what to think or what not think, your just a robot or zombie? I think that’s bullshit! Where is the choice, we all have power the create reality of own personal choosing.  Hold on to what we know to be true and those unmovable points and post in our lives that make the fabric of whom and what we are.  Our experiences not anothers. No group or individual should have no authority to dictate what true in anothers world and force the there agendas. I don’t honestly believe that being gay is a real state of being it’s nothing other than  just genetic splicing or just hybriding. Theres no truth in that! So I cant acknowledge it as such.

  An acronym for GOD I once heard was Good Orderly Direction. But what happens when the directions isn't good at all. Is that “good” just what might personally the suit the person or certain groups there selfish agendas. Is that good motivated by greed  and perverse pleasures.

  Me I don’t hate the LBGT community and I believe in a lot the causes they fight for.  But I do hate the hidden agendas, that aren’t that well hidden in my world. That on the surface what looks like the persecuted and the defenseless are actually the aggressors and the provokers.